One more time I wake up
Enveloped in a lake of sweat
You insult a new day
Again the wish to die
Your sunk and untidy bed
The dirty and threatening sheets
Cover your miserable damaged
and depressed body
You give, you give a sign
Looking for answer
And you ask when?
When will she come for me?
She comes for me!
One more time I wake up
Enveloped in a lake of sweat
You insult a new day
Again the wish to die
You haven´t drunk since yesterday,
That glass on the table looks untenable,
The wish walks for a moment
You only want to drink...
Your strength doesn‘t exist
Your arm weight a ton
That glass makes you wish
Your throat demands it
The body´s stink is disgusting,
Your hot and dry mouth,
You are only longing for one thing,
To kiss the death´s lips.
Your legs feel the weight
From the other days
The cramps don´t stop
And the atrophy is the greatest.
The pains and the delirium
Are passing in your head. You let
Yourself die. You only look at the watch
You wish one thing in your life.
Leaving the bed
Get up and walk
You crawl as your strength comes back
Somebody waits behind the door
Your desperation grows on, to scars and hurts
your nails
The main door beyond opens
And your arms to stretch out, you feel tears
falling down
your heart is dying
and you give your last smile.
She comes to save you, to share your wish
You only want her to take you off.