I'm gnawing on the knowledge
That i have been burnt
And i'm learning things that i
Should've already learnt
Everyone i ever knew
Was so kind and coy
I was with a girl
But it felt like i was with a boy
I can't even remember
If we were lovers
Or if i just wanted to
But i held her in my arms
I held her in my arms
I held her in my arms
But it wasn't you
I will not kill
The one thing that i love
In this world of wreckage
I look above
Help me lord
Help me understand
What it means to be a boy
What it means to be a man