Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochist to wich I cater
You don‘t need to bother
I don‘t need to be
I‘ll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won‘t let go till it bleeds
Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason
My flaws are open season
For this I gave up trying
One good time deserves my dying
Instead of live
A zombie hides my face
She‘ll forgotten with its memories
Diaries left with cryptic gentries
You don‘t nedd to bother
I don‘t need to be
I‘ll keep slipping farther
But once I‘m gone
I‘ll never live down my desease.