What I Should Have Said


If your heart could see,
If your heart could feel,
You‘ve shielded your feelings,
With armories of steel.

Let someone else get into your head,
Let your mind be free,
Open up to me.
Paint the picture memory takes.
Share your burden with your loved ones.
Categorized emotions kept on the shelf
that‘s buckling under alcoholic pressure.

Self enlisted troops marching up against you.
Now there‘s no erasing,
Emotional scars.
Children don‘t request,
To become a punching bag.
Teach the family,
Walk a narrow line.

Don‘t look back at what you left behind.
Once again a bachelor undefined.
Someday I‘ll see your swollen, wet pupils,
And take a mental photo.

A shaky checkered past I see.
Hiding under your blanket of guilt.
Shadowboxing with the pain that was your double life,
The sin that engulfed your marriage..